Sunday, November 22, 2009
Friday, November 20, 2009
Here's to you and you know who you are.
As the title says here goes my response.
First and foremost, I'd be nice with my words and also my verbs,
Make me better thy tried but better for what?
Hands on shoulders pissed off I'd be? or so you said.
But did you see? What foul thing it touched a second before.
Now "it" moves on to the lap, and so you said it's just for laughs.
But did you know? Some jokes could turn a yellow, into a red.
A hug you crave and I did not gave. Wonder why?
Once again, take a walk, to minutes before.,
And then you'll see the answer to why.
So now you want, myselft to heal, but heal it is for what disease?
Something you made? Something you think? Something you assumed?
Open your eyes and then you'll see, how healthy but not sick I really am.
Take a mirror and gaze inside,
Before you judge me and my so-called "other" side,
Others you have asked but like you said,
One wears a different mask to other people,
Truth be told, different you appeared in their eyes,
So once again my little hypocrite,
I ask you this question
For your digestion.
Do you really know who I am?
This is you, I see, through my tiny eyes.
Others are shining oh-so-brightly,
And there you stayed, so very dim,.
Like an ant, you worked very hard,
Like a star, you tried to shine,
But still it is, dim you remain,
From yellow to green, Is the change I see,
But did you know?
The face of envy, is the face of green.
The green grew brighter in a sea of people,
Small remarks I only made,
So there you go with a face of green,
Show off you shouted and so you thought,
That's how you appeared, so green in my eyes,
As others did not, thought like you.
I hope you understand. My so called "outburst" Read carefully to understand fully. Every line has a meaning.
Pay attention to the coloured letters. I wonder if you could see my hidden message?
First and foremost, I'd be nice with my words and also my verbs,
Make me better thy tried but better for what?
Hands on shoulders pissed off I'd be? or so you said.
But did you see? What foul thing it touched a second before.
Now "it" moves on to the lap, and so you said it's just for laughs.
But did you know? Some jokes could turn a yellow, into a red.
A hug you crave and I did not gave. Wonder why?
Once again, take a walk, to minutes before.,
And then you'll see the answer to why.
So now you want, myselft to heal, but heal it is for what disease?
Something you made? Something you think? Something you assumed?
Open your eyes and then you'll see, how healthy but not sick I really am.
Take a mirror and gaze inside,
Before you judge me and my so-called "other" side,
Others you have asked but like you said,
One wears a different mask to other people,
Truth be told, different you appeared in their eyes,
So once again my little hypocrite,
I ask you this question
For your digestion.
Do you really know who I am?
This is you, I see, through my tiny eyes.
Others are shining oh-so-brightly,
And there you stayed, so very dim,.
Like an ant, you worked very hard,
Like a star, you tried to shine,
But still it is, dim you remain,
From yellow to green, Is the change I see,
But did you know?
The face of envy, is the face of green.
The green grew brighter in a sea of people,
Small remarks I only made,
So there you go with a face of green,
Show off you shouted and so you thought,
That's how you appeared, so green in my eyes,
As others did not, thought like you.
I hope you understand. My so called "outburst" Read carefully to understand fully. Every line has a meaning.
Pay attention to the coloured letters. I wonder if you could see my hidden message?
Thursday, November 5, 2009
My life in 2 days.
3rd of November 2009
Very very freaky day I tell you. Woke up at 3am due to some loud banging. Where did it came from? I do not know. Then I paid no attention to it.. and went back to sleep. Woke up again around 5 am because of my alarm. This time... the banging got louder and it seemed to come from somewhere below my bed and near the corner of my room. I went to checked and I couldn't really see well because it was dark but what I could see was a black thing swirling and twirling like crazy.
I switched on the lights and the "thing" stopped moving almost immediately.Guess what I saw? A black cat. Size? Can't really tell the size but it looks like a 1 year old cat. When it stopped moving, it looked dead. I thought it was being possesed by something (can't help it! I watched Emily Rose the day before) and so I didn't even touch it. Instead, I quickly went outside my room and called my mom. When my mom went inside my room, the cat was already in a "sitting" position and was "meow-ing". Really freaked me out. One second it looked dead and the next, it was alive again.
Seeing as to how the cat is healthy again, I went and took a bath. When I finished bathing, guess what? The cat is dead. Again. This time, it's head was on the ground....freaky. When I got back home from school the cat was in another different position weird... how could a dead cat move? and didn't my mom said she would take care of the body? Ugh. Then my mom came and told me this another thing that freaked me out again. She said the neighbour swore she saw the cat died being eaten by a BIGGER cat. What was in my head? Cool. I have a zombie cat. Hope it doesn't haunt my room. But shit, that was freaky.
4th of November 2009
Had a school trip to Hospital Mesra at Bukit Padang. Incase you dont know, that is the hospital for the mentally ill people. When we reached there we had a short talk about the place, it's history and it's patients. We discovered that there were some patients that decided to suicide because they knew their crimes would chain them inside of that hospital FOREVER. At first we visited the ward where they trained the patients to be independent and useful. The patients are given sickles and etc for cleaning and gardening. They were even taught how to cook and fry things... the only freaky part there was when this one scary looking girl looked at me and smiled.. revealing only one teeth... she looked real scary :X sorry to say.
Then the next ward we visited was the ward where the patients who were allowed to go in and out of the hospital. It was funny there. Caster was asked to play the guitar to guide the "happy"(I'll refer to them as happy people instead of crazy people) old lady who was gonna sing a song. I thought she'd sing a nice song. I hid my laughter when she started singing burung kakak tua. I'm evil I know :l but not as evil as the nurses. There's this other old happy woman who was there who kept on saying "Ibu...saya mau pulang" pitiful right? Pfft, the nurses didn't show an ounce of pity and instead laugh at her and made fun of her.
On to the old people's ward now :). We were greeted by a happy old guy who said " HAIII KAWANNN " hahahaha he's very nice. The chief of the ward told us that the ward is open and is not closed like a prison because.. even if these old people escape. They can't run far because they're old. Haha the way he said it was VERY FUNNY. But there's some sad things too like... theres this old guy who had tears in his eyes... he was stuck in that hospital from when he was young all because a stupid mistake that he did. He killed a guy. But from the look in his eyes, truth be told, he regretted his past actions whole heartedly. When we went to their sleeping quarters, an old happy man was moving backwards as if he was moon walking and then... he just fell. Weird. Yes. Very.
Moving on, we then went to the final ward. The forensic ward. That's where they keep all the psycho criminals. Just before entering I could feel a murderous sense...ugh.. the feeling was scary. What was more scary was when the guy asked us to go in and look at them without any protection... not even any bars to keep them away from harming us. But when we got inside, they didn't even touch us they just... stared at us and oh believe me... their gaze is enough to give you the shivers. Heck, there was this scary fat chinese dude who looked VERY scary especially with the sharp thin white eyebrows, the murderous eyes and oh the triangular long white goatie..... VERY SCARY INDEED.
I know I post long crap :) and you guys probabbly won't read. But what the heck anyways right? haha >:)
Very very freaky day I tell you. Woke up at 3am due to some loud banging. Where did it came from? I do not know. Then I paid no attention to it.. and went back to sleep. Woke up again around 5 am because of my alarm. This time... the banging got louder and it seemed to come from somewhere below my bed and near the corner of my room. I went to checked and I couldn't really see well because it was dark but what I could see was a black thing swirling and twirling like crazy.
I switched on the lights and the "thing" stopped moving almost immediately.Guess what I saw? A black cat. Size? Can't really tell the size but it looks like a 1 year old cat. When it stopped moving, it looked dead. I thought it was being possesed by something (can't help it! I watched Emily Rose the day before) and so I didn't even touch it. Instead, I quickly went outside my room and called my mom. When my mom went inside my room, the cat was already in a "sitting" position and was "meow-ing". Really freaked me out. One second it looked dead and the next, it was alive again.
Seeing as to how the cat is healthy again, I went and took a bath. When I finished bathing, guess what? The cat is dead. Again. This time, it's head was on the ground....freaky. When I got back home from school the cat was in another different position weird... how could a dead cat move? and didn't my mom said she would take care of the body? Ugh. Then my mom came and told me this another thing that freaked me out again. She said the neighbour swore she saw the cat died being eaten by a BIGGER cat. What was in my head? Cool. I have a zombie cat. Hope it doesn't haunt my room. But shit, that was freaky.
4th of November 2009
Had a school trip to Hospital Mesra at Bukit Padang. Incase you dont know, that is the hospital for the mentally ill people. When we reached there we had a short talk about the place, it's history and it's patients. We discovered that there were some patients that decided to suicide because they knew their crimes would chain them inside of that hospital FOREVER. At first we visited the ward where they trained the patients to be independent and useful. The patients are given sickles and etc for cleaning and gardening. They were even taught how to cook and fry things... the only freaky part there was when this one scary looking girl looked at me and smiled.. revealing only one teeth... she looked real scary :X sorry to say.
Then the next ward we visited was the ward where the patients who were allowed to go in and out of the hospital. It was funny there. Caster was asked to play the guitar to guide the "happy"(I'll refer to them as happy people instead of crazy people) old lady who was gonna sing a song. I thought she'd sing a nice song. I hid my laughter when she started singing burung kakak tua. I'm evil I know :l but not as evil as the nurses. There's this other old happy woman who was there who kept on saying "Ibu...saya mau pulang" pitiful right? Pfft, the nurses didn't show an ounce of pity and instead laugh at her and made fun of her.
On to the old people's ward now :). We were greeted by a happy old guy who said " HAIII KAWANNN " hahahaha he's very nice. The chief of the ward told us that the ward is open and is not closed like a prison because.. even if these old people escape. They can't run far because they're old. Haha the way he said it was VERY FUNNY. But there's some sad things too like... theres this old guy who had tears in his eyes... he was stuck in that hospital from when he was young all because a stupid mistake that he did. He killed a guy. But from the look in his eyes, truth be told, he regretted his past actions whole heartedly. When we went to their sleeping quarters, an old happy man was moving backwards as if he was moon walking and then... he just fell. Weird. Yes. Very.
Moving on, we then went to the final ward. The forensic ward. That's where they keep all the psycho criminals. Just before entering I could feel a murderous sense...ugh.. the feeling was scary. What was more scary was when the guy asked us to go in and look at them without any protection... not even any bars to keep them away from harming us. But when we got inside, they didn't even touch us they just... stared at us and oh believe me... their gaze is enough to give you the shivers. Heck, there was this scary fat chinese dude who looked VERY scary especially with the sharp thin white eyebrows, the murderous eyes and oh the triangular long white goatie..... VERY SCARY INDEED.
I know I post long crap :) and you guys probabbly won't read. But what the heck anyways right? haha >:)
Monday, November 2, 2009
Greattt.... Kawad. AGAIN.
I went to school.
Yes I know. It's a monday and what the heck am I doing there on a Monday? For the sake of RM 5 :D. I regretted going though. You'll know soon why. Well, today as usual I rotted at the classroom while playing chess. Played it for like... 5 matches. I won 3 matches against Aaron and 1 match against Joshua and then lost 1 more.. to Aaron =.=. Pfft! If I main style tarik balik just now kan... it could've ended with a stalemate. >:)
As I said earlierm, I regretted going to school today. Why? Well heres your answer. There was the grand sports house meeting. Since I was the timbalan ketua rumah sukan for junior block (form1 - 3). I lead the whole of the green sports house a.k.a "Brendan" from junior block to senior block. *Sigh* very frustrating. I had to ask the small and little kids to sit down and line up and I hate it. They're defiant and arrogant and just won't listen to orders. Oh and guess what? I BECAME THE FRICKING KETUA PERBARISAN. WHAT THE F....FISH! I sooooo wanted to avoid marching next year yet they asked me to become ketua... *sigh*.I hate this. I really do. :(. Pfft! I hope they'll replace me quick. Because I'm super busy next year and don't have time for kawad. Better believe it. >:)
Yes I know. It's a monday and what the heck am I doing there on a Monday? For the sake of RM 5 :D. I regretted going though. You'll know soon why. Well, today as usual I rotted at the classroom while playing chess. Played it for like... 5 matches. I won 3 matches against Aaron and 1 match against Joshua and then lost 1 more.. to Aaron =.=. Pfft! If I main style tarik balik just now kan... it could've ended with a stalemate. >:)
As I said earlierm, I regretted going to school today. Why? Well heres your answer. There was the grand sports house meeting. Since I was the timbalan ketua rumah sukan for junior block (form1 - 3). I lead the whole of the green sports house a.k.a "Brendan" from junior block to senior block. *Sigh* very frustrating. I had to ask the small and little kids to sit down and line up and I hate it. They're defiant and arrogant and just won't listen to orders. Oh and guess what? I BECAME THE FRICKING KETUA PERBARISAN. WHAT THE F....FISH! I sooooo wanted to avoid marching next year yet they asked me to become ketua... *sigh*.I hate this. I really do. :(. Pfft! I hope they'll replace me quick. Because I'm super busy next year and don't have time for kawad. Better believe it. >:)
Sunday, November 1, 2009
Sad. Sad and even more SAD
Wow. Who said after PMR it would be oh-so-awesome so free and so fun? Well for most people, yeah. But for me? It's hell. Seriously! Am stuck at home doing nothing at all while other people is out there and enjoying life :( This sucks. *sigh* I feel like a no life :(.
So basically...... I'm so bored and I REALLY REALLY REALLY WANNA GO OUT :(
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