Oh. Yipeee. Holidays. How fun. Notice the dots?

Ever had those random moments during a day where suddenly you just feel all emotional? Yeah that happens to me. Alot. Well they used to occur at a certain time but recently, it's been getting worse. I dunno it might just be the holiday boredom getting to my head or.... I might be mentally ill with something called "Bipolar Disorder". Crap. Thats what happens when I watch too much 90210 xD.

So people, how're your holidays? Must be great fun right?


Mine? Oh it's been superb. Well, if I told you that then I'm sorry but I lied.


I wanna go out and have fun oh-so-very badly :(. Sadly, two problems.

1. Nobody wanna bring me out or go out with me.

2. Running low on cash.

And now you know why I updated my blog.

I'm just that damn bored.

And if you're reading this.. though I doubt you would even check my posts.
I'm sorry I know I'm freaking you out.
I'm just bad at socializing and am such a geeky nerd.

I keep on hurting myself.

I don't know why but lately, all I've felt are disappointments and sadness. Sure, our team did win the recent Drama competition but..., It was a short-lived glory. I won't go into details about this. I've been quite emotional too but then again.. I was always a sensitive soul.

The world through my perspective? Hmph. Go figure. You might see me always isolating myself from other people. But if you think that I am really putting myself on that abandoned island, You're wrong. Why? I can't fit in. Try to? I surely have. Sure, people do talk but when they talk to me, it's usually just a short talk and then BOOM off they go talking to another person and what do I feel? Ignored. I tried starting up a conversation.. but I just can't. I'm not a social person. I often wait for people to strike up a conversation with me. Lately, I've tried my best going around looking for someone to talk to but in the end, I just end up making myself look stupid/desperate for attention.

I hate my shy/unsocial self.

I doubt anyone reads my blog anymore. I'm just writing cause I feel like it.