C'mon.

I have got to stop feeling ugly and sad.

68 Days.

68 Days to SPM. Study progress:
1.English = Don't need to study.
2. BM = Haven't read form 4 & 5 novels.
3. M3 = Don't need to study.
4.+M3 = Chapter 2 form 4.
5. Bio = Haven't started.
6. Chem = Haven't started.
7. Physics = Haven't started.
8. Moral = Don't need to study.
9. Sejarah = Chapter 2 form 4.
10. Literature = Study after all other subjects are done.

In conclusion, Me = Die.

Oh! It's been 2 days since I last logged on Facebook. I'm so proud of myself :). This morning, I had a dream. In that dream, I logged onto Facebook. What happened next? I woke up. :l

I think I know now...

All I missed and needed.. was just someone that I could talk to.

What is this?

Please tell me. Why do I feel so lonely? :(

Fuck this.

You've changed. You're no longer that magical girl I used to like. What happened? It hurts watching you change like this.



To the others, I thought you people were my friend. Well, now I know who's fake and who isn't.

It's all in my head.

I just want to feel that I'm important to someone.

A bomb after another.

 Right after a hurricane of emotional ordeals, I'm faced with the news of being picked for PLKN. How nice, dropping another bomb after another. But I'm still trying my best to hang on and not explode. Let's just hope I'm able to deal with this bomb.

Ugh.

How I wish you know what I want you to know and for things to happen like how I want it to happen.

But I know
It can never be

The way I want it to be

:'(

That Ugly Feeling

Have you ever felt forgotten? left out? lonely? Yes. That's exactly what I'm feeling every single time I open up my facebook account. Well that's just half of it. Another half is jealousy. Watching how other people can easily click with each other.. yeah. I'm seriously jealous. I hate this ugly feeling. It's making me feel all sad inside. Am I feeling lonely? I guess. *sigh* Maybe I should just deactivate my facebook. I don't know.... Well.. if this feeling keeps up. I might just have to really deactivate it.

A New Face

The new facelift of my blog indicates its very revival. Question is, why did I revive this blog? Simple. I needed some form of platform to express myself because seriously and honestly, I feel like a ticking time bomb.

Tick.. tick.. tick..

Just simply waiting for the time when I finally go BOOM. So yeah, I needed some sort of way to delay the inevitable. In other words, I need to calm myself down and reduce the stress on this mental nuclear bomb. The emotional pressure is just too much for me to contain it within myself.